Trusting My Intuition: How I Discovered My Son’s Astigmatism
There’s a particular kind of voice we all have.
It doesn’t shout. It doesn’t demand. It certainly doesn’t send calendar invites. It nudges.
Often at the most inconvenient times, while you’re making tea, halfway through a school run, or lying awake at 2am wondering why something just doesn’t sit right.
That’s intuition.
And if you ignore it, it will patiently wait. If you listen, it will quietly rearrange your life.
The Trouble With Ignoring the Obvious
We’re taught to trust logic. Systems. Experts. Checklists. But intuition? That tends to be filed somewhere between “gut feeling” and “probably nothing.”
Except—sometimes—it’s everything.
I didn’t set out looking for Reiki. In fact, if you’d asked me a few years ago, I’d have probably smiled politely and changed the subject. My path into it wasn’t a grand spiritual calling.
It was much simpler. Something felt off.
When Life Starts to Feel Too Loud
My son Evan has always been bright. Not just “doing well in school” bright, but curious, articulate, confident in a way that made you pause and smile.
At three years old, he ordered his own meal in a restaurant. No prompting. No hesitation. A small human with a big presence. And then, slowly, almost imperceptibly at first… that began to change.
School became harder, academically and emotionally.
He grew quieter. More hesitant.
The confidence that once came so naturally started to shrink, bit by bit, year by year.
By nine, he wasn’t the same child in those environments.
He second-guessed himself. He didn’t want to speak out of turn. He carried a kind of quiet anxiety that didn’t quite make sense for a boy who was, by all accounts, intelligent and capable.
And that’s the thing about intuition, it doesn’t always give you answers.
Sometimes it just keeps tapping you on the shoulder, saying:
Look again.
The Moment We Both Needed to Breathe
Somewhere in the middle of all of this, I found Reiki. Or more accurately, Reiki found me.
What started as curiosity quickly became something else entirely. A space. A pause. A moment where both Evan and I could simply exist without pressure, without noise, without trying to make sense of everything.
Our sessions became a kind of refuge with no expectations or overthinking. Just presence.
And for Evan, that mattered.
Because when the world feels confusing, sometimes what you need isn’t more information. It’s space, to settle, feel safe and just be.
The Nudge That Wouldn’t Go Away
Even with Reiki helping him relax, that quiet voice kept returning.
Something’s still not quite right.
Now, this is where persistence comes in. Because intuition isn’t always a lightning bolt moment. Often, it’s repetitive. Slightly annoying. Like a song stuck in your head that you can ignore, but it won’t ignore you.
So eventually, I listened. We went to the Optometrist.
Not because there was a dramatic incident. Not because anyone had suggested it urgently. But because something, deep down, kept saying:
Check.
The Answer That Changed Everything
Astigmatism.
A word that, on paper, sounds almost underwhelming. But in reality? It explained everything.
The confusion.
The overwhelm.
The hesitation.
The slow erosion of confidence.
Imagine trying to navigate a world that never quite looks or feels right, but not having the words to explain it. That was Evan’s experience.
And suddenly, the puzzle pieces clicked into place. He wasn’t struggling because he lacked ability. He was struggling because his world wasn’t clear.
These were the signs I wish I had recognised sooner.
If you’re reading this and wondering about your own child, I want to share what I wish I’d known sooner.
These are some of the signs that can easily go unnoticed.
When Intuition Becomes a Turning Point
Here’s the part I keep coming back to: What if I hadn’t listened? What if I’d brushed it off as “just a phase”? What if I’d trusted only what was visible on the surface?
Intuition doesn’t replace logic, but it often leads you to the right place to apply it. It guided me to Reiki when we needed calm,
and to the optometrist when we needed answers. And it reminded me, again and again, that persistence matters.
A Quiet Message for You
If you’ve found your way here, I don’t think it’s by accident.
Maybe something in your life doesn’t quite add up.
Maybe someone you love is struggling in a way that doesn’t make sense.
Maybe you’ve had that same quiet nudge, and you’ve been brushing it aside.
Consider this your gentle permission to listen.
Astigmatism exists.
Subtle challenges exist.
And sometimes, the answers we’re looking for are just one intuitive step away.
The Return of Confidence
We’re still on the journey.
But already, I can see glimpses of that confident little boy again. The one who knew exactly what he wanted and wasn’t afraid to say it.
Only this time, there’s something more.
Understanding. And that changes everything.
Final Thoughts
Intuition won’t always make sense in the moment. It rarely arrives with a neatly typed explanation. But it’s remarkably good at getting you where you need to go, if you’re willing to follow it.
So listen. Be persistent. Trust the nudge.
Because sometimes, the smallest inner voice leads to the biggest answers. And occasionally… it leads you exactly where you were meant to be all along.
If this resonates with you and you’re wondering whether your child could be experiencing something similar, this guide explains astigmatism in a really clear, simple way. It might just help you connect a few dots.
7 Gentle Signs to Trust Your Intuition
If this resonated with you, I’ve created a gentle guide to help you tune into your intuition as a parent.
